too absent

I have been far too absent lately and that's just the way it is. I did have a lovely trip to No Cal over the fourth of July, which was very exciting as I had never been to California before and I had the chance to see friends I haven't seen in years, or feel like I haven't seen in years. I think I would like to live there, people seem more laid back and easy to be with there, there doesn't seem to be the same posturing that goes on in New York and I felt more accepted and included there. Anyway I need to get of New York soon.

Going to California along with a few other things I have been doing has definitely changed the way I look at the world right now. I feel so creatively charged and have started drawing and painting again and I am preparing to start making some of my own clothes again. Maybe I'll get really crazy and make some clothes for other people too. There is a friend of mine that I want to make a big poofy skirt too.

When I was in California I hung out with someone who drew constantly, which got me inspired to start drawing again and not just fashion sketching, really drawing from life. Also, I read My Life in France about Julia Child's time in France and how she developed Mastering the Art of French Cooking. It was so inspiring to read about how engrossed she was in cooking and the art and science of it. Though, it had it's frustrations, she was fufilled by it. This is what I need. I need to find a passion and work toward that passion. This is why I need to go to Grad school. I need to get out of this rat race and work toward what really makes me happy. The only trouble is finding this.